Road Trip to Michigan

Very Random

So I'm just sitting here and thought I would post a blog since I haven't for a little while. Well I was talking to some ladies at my church about different college classes because I want to explore my options before I trade my life over to one thing for the rest of my life. I thought about taking an economics class and then was told it was about math. First off I can't express to you how much I hate math!! This was a huge turn off for me and second off I felt like this kinda gave me a challenge. So then I thought about taking a political science class. A class that would help me understand how all that stuff goes down. It's nice to understand the government once in awhile and how to manipulative just like them. Political leaders have much power over people. My mom used to tell me that I was going to marry the President. I don't think I could handle all those pressures of being a First Lady. Though I won't complain about the beautiful house that I would get to live in! Last summer I did get the chance to go inside the White House. I went with some people from my high school choir. Most people sorta just walked right through it like it was just another house. I, on the other hand, walked very slowly and took everything in since we can't take pictures. It's like "hello this is the white house! Not a lot of people are priveledged enough to walk through this." It's so hard to get into the White House. I feel very happy being one of the few Americans who gets to have a tour through a very prestigious home.

So recently it's been cold here and just today it's starting to warm up and feel like summer again! It's just sad when it's the 4th of July and it doesn't feel like the 4th of July. Speaking of the 4th of July...I can't believe the summer is already half way over!!! I will be very happy to be heading back to Michigan, don't get me wrong, but I won't be looking forward to going back to classes and being poor again from paying off my school bill! I was recently looking at a calendar to see when my last day of work should be and I basically only have a month and a half of work before it's time for me to peace out of here forever! That's right FOREVER!!! It's kinda sad though that I will never call Forreston my home again. I grew up here and made a lot of memories here, but the place just isn't for me. I sure want my parents to realize it has nothing to do with the family just the fact that this place has nothing for me. Sorry if this post seems all over. I'm just writing stuff down as it comes to mind.

I wish times would jump back to the days when people didn't have to lock their doors and kids wanted to come back home. The times when you didn't worry about your kid and they always came home for dinner. I think the 60's ruined all the good things like that. Sorry I just have a little something against the 60's. It sure as hell wasn't the 50's

Well I think that's enough rambling for one post

Enjoi World!

NO place like Home

You know how sometimes you'll go somewhere for vacation and you don't want to leave? You wish you could stay there for the rest of your life. That is how I feel about Grand Rapids, Michigan. I attend school in the city and when it came time for me to leave I wanted to go home and see my family and friends. Little did I know that after a few days home I wanted to go back. I missed it like crazy! I even remember a few times I was very depressed because I missed my life so much up there. To me it's not just my home away from home, it is my home. I love the people, the views the things to do that I don't have back here in Illinois. I feel like it is a place where I can make a home for myself and eventually raise my children. A place that I can call home. A place that I want to call home. I recently came back from a trip up there and it took all that I had to keep going south and not turn around. Grand Rapids is home to me. I'm so happy to have found something like this that is going to make me happy and keep me happy. I just hope that all of you out there have found "home" or will be finding it soon. Trust me when you find it, you'll never want to leave. You'll know it's the place for you because you'll feel it in your heart. I can't wait for September when I get to see my lovely home again and stay there forever!

GLee

"Just a small town girl. Living in a lonely world.  She took the midnight train going anywhere."

These are the words most of us know oh so well, but tonight the cast of Glee made it into their own and it's a hit.  I've already listened to it a ton of times.  This show is just really amazing to me. I feel like this is how high school should be.  I mean people not caring and doing things because they enjoy doing them and not caring what other people think of them.  I fell like as teenagers, we miss out on a lot of things and a lot of great memories because we are too worried about what people think of us rather than what we want and really and truly care about.  

$ Money $

Finding a job is so hard.  I'm just a college student looking to make a lot of money and will do anything, how hard could that be.  But it's a tough world out there.  I mean I can't imagine what it's going to be like when I actually get done with college and I'll bills and loans to pay off.  I just might have to become that kid that lives with their parents because they are broke and have no where else to go.  I really don't want it to come down to that.  

It's really tough when you are from a small town and have to go to all the other small towns around you to find jobs and so you have all these kids looking for jobs and fighting.  That is what really stinks.  I think it might have been easier if I were from a bigger town or a city.  Then I feel like there would be more opportunities for me.  But no, I'm stuck in rural Illinois scrounging for anything that I can get.  Life can be so unfair.  

This will only make me stronger in the long run.  For now I have to be a fighter to make it buy and when times get tough I will know what to do since, well, I have been there before.  Let's just hope that times get better.  Which, I'm assuming, they are not.  

Shallow Depth of Field

Back @ Home

So now I am finished with my first year of college.  Life seems to fly by so fast.  It seems that the older I get the faster time goes, it's pretty crazy.  Now I have to work and work and work some more.  Once you grow up things seem to just pop up that never did before.  Like my car.  I never had to worry about my car before and now all of a sudden that I need to depend on it, it just decides that hey I'm old, I don't know if I want to travel that far.  Life can sure get frustrating.  I just wish that I could go live out in the woods somewhere and just live off the farm.  I feel like problems wouldn't find me there, but I know that they would.   

Another thing that I've noticed is that being back at home is just weird.  I mean people are used to you not being  home and then when you get back it's just different.  Even my family acts like I'm not here sometimes.  I guess I can't blame them.  I know that things wouldn't be the same.  I have been told that you're first year back from college is the worst.  I was told that I'm going to be ver bored.  Which is true.  

I really didn't want to leave Grand Rapids for the summer.  Things would've been much better if I could've stayed up there.  Next summer for sure I am not coming home.  I just don't think I'll be able to do it again.  I guess things should get better after all my friends are done with school also.  I just miss all my friends.  I miss being able to hang out with them all the time and not really having a care.  I miss my dorm room, which is something I never expected myself to be saying.  It's true though.  I do.  I just hope that this summer will be fun.  I want to at least be able to do a few good things and not just work.  I mean I do need money, but I want to at least have a little life.