Tuesday, May 19, 2009


"Just a small town girl. Living in a lonely world.  She took the midnight train going anywhere."
These are the words most of us know oh so well, but tonight the cast of Glee made it into their own and it's a hit.  I've already listened to it a ton of times.  This show is just really amazing to me. I feel like this is how high school should be.  I mean people not caring and doing things because they enjoy doing them and not caring what other people think of them.  I fell like as teenagers, we miss out on a lot of things and a lot of great memories because we are too worried about what people think of us rather than what we want and really and truly care about.  

Thursday, May 14, 2009

$ Money $

Finding a job is so hard.  I'm just a college student looking to make a lot of money and will do anything, how hard could that be.  But it's a tough world out there.  I mean I can't imagine what it's going to be like when I actually get done with college and I'll bills and loans to pay off.  I just might have to become that kid that lives with their parents because they are broke and have no where else to go.  I really don't want it to come down to that.  

It's really tough when you are from a small town and have to go to all the other small towns around you to find jobs and so you have all these kids looking for jobs and fighting.  That is what really stinks.  I think it might have been easier if I were from a bigger town or a city.  Then I feel like there would be more opportunities for me.  But no, I'm stuck in rural Illinois scrounging for anything that I can get.  Life can be so unfair.  

This will only make me stronger in the long run.  For now I have to be a fighter to make it buy and when times get tough I will know what to do since, well, I have been there before.  Let's just hope that times get better.  Which, I'm assuming, they are not.  

Monday, May 11, 2009

Shallow Depth of Field

Back @ Home

So now I am finished with my first year of college.  Life seems to fly by so fast.  It seems that the older I get the faster time goes, it's pretty crazy.  Now I have to work and work and work some more.  Once you grow up things seem to just pop up that never did before.  Like my car.  I never had to worry about my car before and now all of a sudden that I need to depend on it, it just decides that hey I'm old, I don't know if I want to travel that far.  Life can sure get frustrating.  I just wish that I could go live out in the woods somewhere and just live off the farm.  I feel like problems wouldn't find me there, but I know that they would.   

Another thing that I've noticed is that being back at home is just weird.  I mean people are used to you not being  home and then when you get back it's just different.  Even my family acts like I'm not here sometimes.  I guess I can't blame them.  I know that things wouldn't be the same.  I have been told that you're first year back from college is the worst.  I was told that I'm going to be ver bored.  Which is true.  

I really didn't want to leave Grand Rapids for the summer.  Things would've been much better if I could've stayed up there.  Next summer for sure I am not coming home.  I just don't think I'll be able to do it again.  I guess things should get better after all my friends are done with school also.  I just miss all my friends.  I miss being able to hang out with them all the time and not really having a care.  I miss my dorm room, which is something I never expected myself to be saying.  It's true though.  I do.  I just hope that this summer will be fun.  I want to at least be able to do a few good things and not just work.  I mean I do need money, but I want to at least have a little life.  

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Planning 4 the Wedding

Michele Crepas and Nick Harris