Hello...?

I sometimes wonder if there is truly anyone out there reading this. I also wonder why I have a blog. Then I remember that I'm doing this for myself. Just to let things out and to help me to know what I'm thinking. Last night I went and saw the movie Julie and Julia. While watching the movie I thought to myself "I wish I had a blog like Julie did. Something with meaning and purpose." Julie had a reason to blog. I on the other hand didn't. Now, I know that this is truly just me. I don't care who reads this or what they think when they read it. At least, I know that 1 person is out there caring about this. And that person is the only one that truly matters. It's me.

Now onto something else. I have recently discovered that I have a love for the fashion world. I enjoy the things that you see the celebs wearing. I have made it my personal goal this year to try and look as chic as possible. I want to see if it somehow makes me feel better about myself. I know that in days before whenever I would wear something pretty, I would feel pretty about myself. I just want to see if somehow my attitude changes or if my feelings towards clothing changes. I am not doing this because I have low self esteem or anything. I'm just doing this because I love dressing up. Let's just see where this goes shall we.

Well that's it for today.

Lynnea Grace

1 week Away

I now only have one week till I'm moving out of Illinois forever. It's kind of crazy to think about, but I'm getting more and more excited everyday. Today I went through and cleaned out my drawers of my desk, something that I rarely ever used. It was mainly stuffed full of junk that I didn't have space for anywhere else. I filled up a whole garbage bag worth of crap. Why the hell I had kept some of the stuff I have no idea, but I did. It's all in the dumpster now! It feels sort of liberating. Tomorrow I move onto my other drawers and the tops of my dressers. I have so much stuff people. My mother informed me yesterday she wants most everything out so my brother can move into my room. Great...

I also finished up my last day of work yesterday. Bittersweet because I love the people that I work with, but yet I'm still glad to just be able to get stuff done. Spend some good quality time with the family before I just up and leave them.

I was also just informed the once I turn 20, I no longer have dental insurance and have to pay for it myself. Wow, the real world is hitting me. It is very crazy how fast I seem to be growing up. Life will never be the same for me once I leave Illinois next week. I'll have my own apartment, be paying for my own dental stuff and making my own decisions for real.

It were times like these when I wish I had older siblings to help me along. I guess that's what God is for. He I know I can depend on. That's a very comforting thought.

I'm very happy that in only 8 days I'm going to be seeing all my friends again and most importantly Josh. I just can't wait to see his face again instead of just hearing his voice.

Well a lot of stuff has to get done in a short amount of time. Wish me luck!

Lynnea Grace

It's coming to an end...

So summer is slowly coming to a close. It seems like just yesterday that I was unpacking my stuff and now I'm packing it back up. Then for the last time I will be moving back up to Michigan. This is my last summer home, so I won't be moving back here. Anyways, as the summer rolled along, the better it seemed to get. I had a wonderful trip up to Michigan, some picnics, wonderful dates with my girls, movie nights, late nights and some good quality family time. There are going to be some things that I will miss, but I won't miss it enough to stay here and make me want to cry. Everyone is growing up and moving on and so am I. I was talking to someone last night and he told me that I'm probably going to end up back in a small town sometime in my life. I just don't see it right now. I love the big city of Grand Rapids and I don't ever want to leave it. I don't find myself bored there.

I have to say though that this summer has been a good one. I still wish that the summer had been spent up in G.R, but I enjoyed the time that I spend down here for the wonderful 4 months. Wow, crazy how I get 4 months off and my brother and sister only get 2! High school seems to be starting earlier and earlier these days. Krazy!

Well everyone enjoy the rest of your summer and keep having fun and living your life

Lynnea Grace